This is a physical recounting of a Journey related Purge.
Over the course of the day, I could feel things moving about. The day had seen water and a small amount of banana eaten in the morning, and just water through the afternoon in clinic. Feeling worse and worse, I made it through a shower and then IT hit!
Poor Michelle was staying over and she was subject to the full spectacular. I try to throw up quietly when I need to, and that is rare indeed. This was no normal thing. I knew I was going to throw up, so drank a half bottle of water to help the process and buffer the physical effects. As I drank, I clearly felt Aya in the mix somewhere, and felt that drinking that water was a physical cue for the next part. If you have seen the movie, "The Exorcist", you will understand what I will allude to in volume, velocity and capacity. Everything about the next eight hours of purging was well outside the realms of 'normal'. I had fasted for nearly two days, and there were litres (gallons) of 'stuff' coming out of me. I had taken some charcoal caps earlier in the day to help with the nausea and now it was charcoal coming back out.
Following several sessions of 'B grade movie' worthy exorcism type scenes, complete with sound-track and special effects (barring spinning heads), I felt and saw objects coming out of me, outlined clearly and physically in the charcoal. These were the exact same shapes of the cloudy shadows seen previously by Aya and myself. They had total physical coherence and integrity until they hit the water and dissolved, sometimes immediately, sometimes through an array of intermediate shapes. I never felt so good about flushing a toilet after seeing those come out! The volume was incredible; there is no physical way that much could be inside of me, much less coming out and leaving me with enough liquid left in me to keep the blood pumping. I drank a couple of litres over the course of the evening, but I promise you, this was nothing compared to the Niagara Falls type volume coming out!
Between the penultimate and final purge of the session, Aya came to me and said, "you made good choices. The rest we will do in my home." I felt an amazing sense of relief, comfort and peace, even during the last and most spectacular of the purges that evening. It truly felt as if I was throwing out of my body so many bad habits, guilt, worries and negative events and feelings, that all that could be left was cleaner and lighter.
The session finished with the first rays of the new sun and a completely spent Craig! The Thursday clients had to be canceled (something that I do reluctantly and rarely!) and I spent the next two days in bed, recovering and fasting still.
A good friend then bought around a tortilla, made upon onions and garlic in the good, Spanish tradition. Despite normally being repelled by the smell, in anticipation of the body's reaction, I decided to try a corner. After eight hours and no pain, I had a little more. Still no pain, no bowel repercussions and no cramping. A full meal of tortilla and salad later and still no cramps! OK, time to test it; ordered take out from a local Italian place, including the garlic bread; had a big feed and nothing but normal! Since then, I have eated garlic and onions freely and had no repercussions.
Horse remain untested (waiting until the peak of summer) but initial indications are good that the horse allergy is no longer active either.
I stress that these things are as close to medically impossible as anything can be. Once established, food allergies like I had are considered there for life.
Notes – There is more purging to be done in the future – oh yes indeed there is! Industrialised culture avoids purging as a bad thing. Shamanically, purging has been used for treatment for thousands of years. The thing many do not get is that when in the grip of Aya or a similar plant Teacher, give yourself over to the process and remain the observer as well as the participant. The purge is almost orgasmic in nature (although nowhere near as enjoyable), a joyous release of life's crap and detritus from one's being.
The Unexpected Gifts – Since this evening, I have had a complete and total disregard for alcohol, something I normally enjoyed , but not excessively. Aya said that this will remain for three months. (Note: this actually lasted around five months and moderation is now my desire – 2014) I have little interest in meat other than fish and foul occasionally, and now taste the sugar and salt in foods that before were bland to me. My belt has come in three sizes, my desire is for whole and healthy food. Alcohol, junk food and processed foods have less appeal to me now than drinking engine oil! My being has changed and I am more filled with life and vitality again. Chocolate is no longer satisfying, nor even particularly enjoyable. I have not added salt to my food since, yet taste salt clearly in even a boiled egg.
Physically, I have taken up yoga now without even deciding to, it is just a part of who I am now, at least since the purge.
Summary – I have been privileged to meet Ayahuasca before I meet Her physically in Her jungle home. My contact with Her has been profound and life-changing. To me, personal miracles like those described above are clear confirmations that the path I am on is the right one for me.
Since this purge, my shamanic practice is far more natural and less restrained. I know my path is clear and guided, marked by personal healing at every point. My energy is higher, cleaner and my person is lighter again. I have been shown exactly what to expect in my first few physical meetings, taking the Ayahuasca medicine physically in the Amazon (it is illegal in Australia).
I know Aya will teach and assist me to release the rest of the crap I have carried for years. Even better, she has offered to help me learn how to help others, an opportunity I have gladly and without reservation, accepted.
The relief and ease that something so simple as being able to eat corn chips with salsa again, to want to eat cucumbers and watercress and greens, to desire above choice those things which are healthful to my body and mind,.. wow! Thank you Grandmother Aya.